Thursday, October 05, 2006

CLASSES 8 AND 9:

First time wearing pants to school......no its not what u think... my school had a shorts only(for boys OBVI) rule till 7th std ...

Learning to "secretly like" someone.... love her even.. making up my mind to "not to tell it to anyone" ...probably because i did not have the guts...or maybe common sense(for lack of a better word ) prevailed.. trying to let go……..and succeed in keeping it a secret.......till today.... until now

The love affair with quizzing continues….parents deciding not to enrol me into a NEW school because they thought the females wore really short skirts ( pinafores actually ) me fighting and raising seemingly crappy arguments about the extra curricular activities of that school and their strong academics etc etc when ALL I WAS BOTHERED ABOUT WAS THE PINAFORES

The first signs of a moustache appear.... prompting “lotsa jokes” amongst friends….i would have my turn soon.....

The adventure with the WWW and the Internet begins, my first email id
s.sujith@usa.net , learning to type crap in the mIRC chat rooms (heh heh ) posing in as women trying to see how desperate men really are.... and getting
astounded everytime..... and by women too !!!

again ….STILL keeping the "secret" a secret....... loving and longing....again….not yet fully letting go of things...and then bowing out...having lost gracefully... without muttering a word...... still feeling good at having DONE the right thing (or so I think)

seeing the home PC make its appearance in the homes of friends..i would have to wait till 3rd year of engineering for "My First PC". the home gets a telephone(minus the STD/ISD facility), all the trappings of a seemingly middle class upbringing


Get into my first serious old man type hobby........ going cycling without any idea about where i am going....... just cycle as far as the road takes me...... only to fid out one day that i have reached the other end of koramangala ring road :) then cycling all the way back.... not going to school the next day because my legs just stiffened like wood

First time someone on my street got a UPS system for their entire home, now we could watch cricket matches WITHOUT having to pray for continuous power supply.

A few friends leaving..... the core bunch still remained........ rather STILL remainS...

Sorting out minor squabbles in the group as guys begin to like the same girl, or for that matter girls fighting over the same guy.

First issue of Debonair, playboy, penthouse...... wishing we were Americans JUST for that reason

"Rakhi" fever begins in school with guys "mysteriously" falling sick on that day......abd not turning up. and the girls were in in FULL ATTENDANCE..... me attended class with absolute confidence.....and a polite "no"

"Valentine's day" makes its debut...., a day of either great joy or great sorrow to teenagers ..... I once again am more than happy to stand and watch from the bylanes on the rooftops......a bird's eye view is all that i got........ or WANTED.

"Sister's day" (I think sister's day is the Teenage male’s Rakhi :) talk about gender equality........ ) .I have seen females too miss class on that day........ have seen a few of them who came...... leaving in tears....... its really depressing when someone wants to cry and CAN’T..... the look on their faces.... tells a million tales

Figuring out that females(classmates) in saris look REALLY OLDER than they actually are.... being bowled over by a few of them.... me looking like pure brown trash :) STILL DO

Becoming the group captain.... would have been voted Head Boy if not for my disciplinary record or so said the teachers.... which suited me just fine as i hate to remain impartial in inter-group sports/extra-curricular activities .My group teachers loved it too.... thats why they did not push my case for Head Boy :) politics...... what can i say

Attending school day and other "important days" just to see girls in "colour dress.." Lovers too used this day to conveniently entertain themselves to a movie or a "walk in the park"

Adding onto the "Things to do before i am 40 list" adding a few really really naive things....... but things that made me smile for once......still do…...

viewing the world in a different way as that of my friends and trying to understand the reason behind my inability to be "ONE among them” and YET .. constantly trying to fit into the group……. Not letting anyone realize the uncomfortability factor…….

Becoming an authority over “ colourful language”….. and the three letter word beginning with “S”. all theoretical …………

Friends start smoking and drinking……… and OBVI getting into trouble.. Me still remaining untouched by the so called Peer pressure.

Feigning happiness…….. Feigning calm…….. Feigning contentment ……..feigning lotsa things…… getting sick and tired of being sick and tired…

Living amidst and between constraints and shackles that i know will continue to remain a part of me forever..... no matter how hard i try to ignore things ....

Hoping.....for a MORE SIMPLE TOMORROW

26 comments:

Anonymous said...

dahling... I am hooked.

FreaKick said...

nicccee... reminds me of my school days.
though i was already in a school with pinafolds..hehehe

FreaKick said...

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The Reprobate said...

sure bawsss.....

Dileep Mouleesha said...

wallah.. this is a strange form of addiction.. want to write my own biography as i remeber it.. is this patented.. my frined..

The Reprobate said...

heh heh i DONT think its patented mah man..... anyway i dont intend to patent it..... u too make an attempt....... memories can bring both Diamonds or Rust..... so be sure :)
keep blogging

Sravi said...

Dude,come off it.Its way too serious...and makes u feel sad!How in the world do u remember these things??? The date u got ur 1st(and only!)cycle???I tried really hard i think mine was a black and yellow "impact".dunno where it is now....

The Reprobate said...

yes lady... i DO have a reasonably good memory i DO remember things that most people forget.....

Twelve years and eleven said...

Time and again i feel like you have had a beautiful, well written, well meant, normal childhood. I can think of a few statistics I read somewhere which tells one about the number of children who have not had a normal childhood due to various reasons. Startling figures, I must say. And believe me, it is such a wonderful thing to be a kid. And to be a normal one at that is just the best that can happen to anyone.

Everyman said...

You've had a normal childhood after all :)) so where did things go wrong?? how did u end up like this ??????

Good series man..a very good series...

The Reprobate said...

@Everyman: thine "cardinal numbers" was the inspiration mah man...... to THIS day the best post i have read....i havent included standards 10th and then the 11th and 12th and the 4 years of engg in the posts.... they will soon be posted

Anonymous said...

Dude... where's college?

Anonymous said...

Well sujith we are (@least i am) waiting for the 10th,11th,12th and the clg series!!!

Sravi.

The Reprobate said...

@anonymous 1: IDENTIFY urself sire/madam

The Reprobate said...

@Srabi: porumai..... amaiidhi....
it is a coming

Anwesha Chatterjee said...

Very well written and very touching. We all have our special set of memories and you seem to have preserved them for a godo cause! Keep up the good job!

Anonymous said...

The post is awesome...

What caught my eye is " Hoping for a more simple tomorrow" ! Sir, remember Murphy's law ?!

From what i can gather and know , life is / has been fairly simple. Its more our attitude over little things in life that makes us feel that someone else is better off than we are. I dont understand why we forget that someone else is also worse off than. Tomorrow is nothing , its a mirage ( cliched i know , but nonetheless true).

Make the most of today ... however "difficult" it might be :).

Keep writing.

The Reprobate said...
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The Reprobate said...

@ANWESHA:thank u thank u

@Anonymous: how is the notion of someone else leadign a life more worse than mine supposed to bring me any kinda solace/comfort? that would seem like Schadenfreude
will try to take yer advice though

Anonymous said...

hi.

i enjoyed reading that. interesting how the view on sex changes as it gets older.

however, i must say, your treatment of girls in this episode is seriously chauvinistic. heh. or maybe it's just me.

The Reprobate said...

chauvinistic?? how so?
and please please keep reading the Diary of the Madman
any such impression was/is unintentional... which makes it even worse i guess....

Negat|veCreep said...

LCFWS. But yer posts always get me down. Get me, how you say, moist?? *sniff sniff*

Anonymous said...

when ALL I WAS BOTHERED ABOUT WAS THE PINAFORES
"First issue of Debonair, playboy, penthouse......"
"wishing we were Americans JUST for that reason"
"Becoming an authority over “ colourful language”….. and the three letter word beginning with “S”. all theoretical …………"

somethings never change, huh!!

Anonymous said...

Loved it! loved it!! Some things really never change and thats a good thing

shantanu said...

nice post..very well written...

Anonymous said...

dude!!!
hahaha
i love that 1st line
hehehe